Nyala, Sudan, December 17, 2024 – Millions of Sudanese women who have fled the horrific violence that has engulfed much of the country remain haunted by vivid memories they cannot escape. The fear that shooting, bombardment, sexual violence, and starvation will follow them wherever they go is persistent and toxic.
The lives of women from Darfur have been particularly upended by this conflict. Some of them recently shared how trauma, along with extreme hunger and malnutrition have become a daily reality.
“What’s happening in Sudan is a war on women and girls” said Mohamed Tijani, CARE’s Head of Office in South Darfur. “It’s mostly women that we see in our clinics, mothers and their small, malnourished children. It’s women that we see in the displacement sites across Darfur. It is almost all women and children who are crossing the border into Chad. They travel so far with nothing, often with little but their small children on their backs. I hear their stories every day, of the horrors they faced while searching for safety, of their long, grueling journeys, of the hunger and malnutrition their families have endured.”
Maria
Maria (20) escaped from her Darfur village earlier this year carrying her small infant Imtias on her back held tightly in place by a thin piece of cloth, the only possession she brought with her. She walked, and ran, with a group from her village trying to get as far from the shooting and bombs as possible. Many of those alongside her were mothers carrying small children as well. Maria explained that the babies did not move or make sounds, and the mothers did not know if they were still alive, or if they were carrying their dead children on their backs.
As for her current situation now living on the other side of the border in Chad, she explained: “At night we now only hear the crying of the children that still can cry. But the sounds of war are gone. We are still alive. But we have no more strength left.”
Teissir
Teissir, a 23-year-old Sudanese woman, ultimately fled to Chad in the fall of 2023 after armed men attacked her East Darfur village. The violence started early in the morning. First, she heard screaming, then sounds of shooting before a grenade flew through her window. The explosion badly injured her sister.
“There was so much shooting, and we saw our neighbors being shot left and right from us,” she said. “There was so much smoke in the whole village that we couldn’t see anything…We followed our neighbors.” Amidst the chaos, she lost her parents.
Teissir and her two sisters arrived at the Mile refugee camp in eastern Chad 10 days later, where she still lives today. Speaking about the long, grueling journey, she shared: “We did not know where we were going, we just walked, putting one foot in front of the other. We were walking like someone who is lost because that is what we were: lost.” After pausing to wipe away tears, she took a deep breath and added, “I thought we would die. There was nothing left for us. I didn’t want to get up again. I didn’t have the strength to continue. I wanted to just stay and wait for my death, but my little sister gave me the strength to go on.”